As if my visit with the Weight Loss Clinic wasn't enough for today, I also had my annual performance evaluation at work.

It was awesome!

In short, I scored 7 points higher than I did last year even with the rating scale being adjusted downward for this year's reviews throughout the entire company.

My boss rated me very high all across the board. She said that I was the one person on her team, that includes 5 Directors, that she scores the highest on Problem Solving and she gave me an Outstanding Performance rating for Quality of Work. I was stunned. It is incredibly difficult for me to see beyond the daily challenges to the big picture. So, I always feel as if I don't measure up to my own expectations for myself. But to know that my boss values me so highly and wrote such a glowing review is incredible.

I often feel as if there is a problem when we don't get a chance to touch base on a regular basis and I have felt quite a bit of angst this past year in that area. But she told me that she never has to ask me questions about what I am doing because I always give her such great reporting on the status of my projects. So all the angst I have felt has been entirely of my own making. But my position is a brand new one in the company and it was created especially for me. I have had to define my own role in this job without any direction, all the while knowing that there were many eyes on me along the way. It has been a year of huge growth, thus the angst.

Today has been quite overwhelming all the way around. Now I just need to get some sleep. I only got 2 hours worth last night in anticipation of both the clinic visit and my review.